About Me

I have done a lot of things in my life and have also worked in many different jobs to make a living and to experience life. This blog is just some of my musings, sometimes funny, sometimes inspirational, sometimes sad, sometimes angry, sometimes simple but all the time, it's just me.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Holding my own

Al E has been having behavioral problems,
Tearing things apart when I am not home.
I fear his safety, don't want him to choke on something.
Breaks my heart ,
But decided to send him to kennel while I am at work.
More for his safety, partially for my sanity,
At least until Ser is back.

Calm down, deep breathes
And get yourself dressed
Instead of running around
And pulling on your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it’s a broken part replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it’s a broken heart then face it

Hold your own, know your name, and go your own way
And everything will be fine

Hang on. help is on the way
Stay strong. I’m doing everything.
So hold your own, know your name, so you can go your own way
And everything will be fine
Everything.


The last couple of days,
Al E has been pulling things,
Climbing places like the sofa and the desks,
Defecating in the wrong places
And eating and pulling clothes, crystals, papers, boxes, tissues etc.

Are the details in the fabric?
Are there things that make you panic?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are there things that make you blow?
hell no reason Go on and scream
if you’re shocked its just the fault of fault manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything


Sometimes I feel I am not a good person,
To send him to the kennel.
But it is for his own safety.
Maybe we have spoiled him too much.
But we both love him to bits.
I don't want to point the fingers at anyone,
But until I can train him to be home alone,
Without having an anxiety attack of being left alone,
Al E has to go to the kennel while I come to work.
It is like sending a kid to a baby sitter.
So, why does it hurt,
why does it break my heart,
why does it bring tears to my eyes,
why is there a lump in my throat.

Hold your own, know your name, and go your own way
Are the details in the fabric?
Are there things that make you panic?
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
(is it mother nature’s sewing machine)
Are there things that make you blow?
hell no reason Go on and scream
if you’re shocked its just the fault of fault manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Hearts will hold.


Take care and be well.

2 comments:

Ser said...

AL-E is going through a phase due to some unforseen circumstances and somewhat our doing (in spoiling him a bit).

I am confident that AL-E will be alright ranging from your planned weekend activity/program. All the best.

bal said...

hold your own, know your name and go your own way....i like that Nils, where is it from? if it is your own then you are a lyric genius and are in the wrong profession!!!
B.